a coward dies a thousand deaths

i feel like job.

i'm living in anticipation of the next bad thing.














i worry

i worry about my children.

i worry about the future.

i worry about the past.

but of all the worrying i've ever done, i've seldom, if ever, worried about the thing that happens.

Matthew 6:27
Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his lifespan?

i cannot control my life.

the way of the world is to bring good and bad, gain and loss.

worrying will not change that.

but it will affect my life

and not for the better.

i cannot change the circumstances.

i can only change me.